I don't know what else to say today. My heart just hurts. It's my last week at home before I return to work next Tuesday and I just don't like the way things are right now. I wanted to go to work part time and spend time with Noah. I miss my co-workers, they are the best, but I just don't want to go back there. I have no choice right now. I know I'll probably be fine once I start back, but for now, I'm dreading it.
I just want my son back.
I am feeble and utterly crushed; I groan in anguish of heart. All my longings lie open
before you, O Lord; my sighing is not hidden from you. I wait for you, O LORD;
you will answer, O Lord my God. ~Psalm 38:8-9,15
So my spirit grows faint within me; my heart within me is dismayed. I spread out my
hands to you; my soul thirsts for you like a parched land. Answer me quickly, O LORD;
my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me or I will be like those who go down to the
pit. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in
you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul. ~Psalm 143:4, 6-8