Tuesday, August 4, 2009

4 Weeks

It's been 4 weeks since Noah died and I still can't wrap my mind around the fact that he's gone. Last night I found myself rubbing my stomach out of habit. And throughout my day I will think about something that I need to get in preparation for his arrival...and then it hits me all over again. The days have flown by. I cannot believe it's been 4 weeks already. To me it feels like a few days...one big blur of emotional turmoil. I woke up sad this morning. David and I talked briefly about the hope that one day I might become pregnant again. I started to cry when I thought, "but it won't be Noah".


  1. I just wanted to say I am lifting you up to the throne of our Lord right now that you might feel His loving arms around you on this day. It is so very hard, and reading your post it feels so familiar...and it shouldn't. No mother should ever have to go through this. But know that people are reading your blog and seeing Christ (some maybe for the first time!) through what you write about your precious little Noah. God's plan is so masterful, that even in our pain He can work wonders.

  2. Lisa, I am Tricia's mother. I remember the day the lovely album which you created for Nate, Trish and Gwyneth arrived at our appartment in Durham. It was such a sweet blessing to us all as we passed through those days of uncertainty. Nate's mother and I sat together turning through each page and wonderd at the love, from someone we may never meet here in this fallen world, that was touching the lives our our own children. I have followed the postings about your dear little Noah and my heart just breaks for you and your family. I know part of your Mother's heart will always be wrapped around your little boy. My own mother lost a boy just after his birth in 1942 and in 1994, on the day of her death , she spoke of that pain and then the joy of knowing she was soon to be with him. As believers we go on, even through the storm, because we have that blessed assurance and can know that the present suffering cannot be compared to the glory yet to be revealed. I am praying for you tonight and will do so as the Lord brings you into my thoughts. Thank you for your faithful testimony to our Lord's grace even in your hour suffering. Yes, to God be the glory!

  3. hello friend, and deepest sympathy to you...i am so honored that "i will carry you" ministered to you, and i wanted to let you know that it will be available on itunes on august 25th (i believe its .99 cents). the girl version is on the cd, but you can get the boy version of itunes then.

    much love and prayer,